The Lady is a Vamp(ire)..

i'm staying with J. D can wait. i've waited forever for him, and i'm happy now! i don't want to ruin that happiness and make someone else miserable.

i talked with J on the phone for an hour last night...completely effortlessly. it was really nice. and he said he might be able to come visit me for my birthday! :D i'm so happy.

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i miss my boyfriend so much!

he's back in michigan, by detroit so that's a 5 hour drive from chicago! ugh i hate this!

and the worst part is that my best guy friend, D, told me about a month ago that he was in love with me. the thing is, that i was (probably still am...) too. i liked D since 2005, and i've waited for him to say this to me for so long! i know when i see him it's gonna be awkward at first and then absolutely perfect, like we were meant to be. my psychic aunt even said we were soul mates.

ugh. what do i do? my bf, J even said that he "gets over things quickly", but i don't want to be gotten over quickly lol. i dunno. things are all over the effing place now.

one thing i DO know is that J is not giving me what i want. i guess after reading Twilight i've come to see that i want passion, romance, and pure love in a relationship. i don't wnat anything to be held back you know? i knwo i'll probably never find someone like Edward but i would like to hope i'll come very close. but for now...i miss my bf a lot. i just want to cuddle with someone i love...

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